Goodbye 2011... ^_^,

2011... Well, it might be the most wonderful year, or else, the worst year for you. Like it or not, it will surely come to its end tonight. We are going to say farewell to the year 2011 in less than an hour and say hello to the all new 2012... Should we cheer to it? Up to you, but i don't feel like to...

As for me, the year 2011 gave me thousands of sorrowful and painful experiences that had affect me deeply. It had never been a smooth journey for me since the early of 2011. Not trying to sound dramatic, but it really does...

I started my 2011 with a career that i always wanted the most, lecturing in a public university located in Perak, Malaysia... Well, i don't have wise working experiences in hands, so some of my frienemies AKA colleagues used this fact against me. You'll surely shocked if i told you the details. No matter what, alhamdulillah, Allah still loves me. And i keep holding still... ^_^v

There goes the 1st quarter of the year...

2nd quarter of the year. I came across a heartbreaking moment, when i officially have to let go person that i love the most for more than a year; WZHK. I have to admit that it's all due to some misunderstanding. And still i feel bad about it, even though we had bury the hatchet and live our own life... Well, perhaps we are not meant to be together... ^_^,

3rd quarter of the year comes...

Well, nothing really happened during this period. My life's great. I live my life to the fullest... But still, nothing can halt the cumulonimbus when it comes and covers the sun. Leaving me in the dark and rain...

I lost 2 most important persons in the last 4th quarter of the year. 1 December 2011, i lost someone that should be the next best thing in my life; MZAG. I can't help myself from fell the breakdown when it happened. Well, another separation spreads on the page 6. Rupert Murdoch should write a cheque for me. Ghetew... Not enough with that, i lost my dad on 13 December 2011 due to complication from lymphoma cancer he had suffered since the end of 2010. Another bitter pills i had to swallow. Al-Fatihah, Allah loves him more than we do... T_T

Trying to take it positively, as usual, i keep on saying to myself "there should be some 'hikmah' behind all this. Only Allah knows why...". Well, that's the only words that i could say to endure the breakdown that i had inside...

Still, i'm looking forward for the 'hikmahs'... ^_^,

Hatred? I Don’t Need Them... ^_^

It doesn't mean that we have to be an enemy when the relationship ends. Why? Because we can't proceed our life with hatred left inside... ^_^


*Copied from my tweet...*

It’s All Started In Twitterjaya... ^_^, (Part Two)

Hello gegirls and boboys!~... ^_^v

This is the continuation of my previous post titled "It’s All Started In Twitterjaya" (Friday, 2 December 2011). I left my blog for a long period for that my father passed away last week on Tuesday, 13 December 2011... Al-Fatihah and may my dad rests in peace. Amen... ^_^,

Anyway, have i told you about that i can't reveal anything to ThatPerson since i'm afraid of rejection? So i kept it to myself and continued tweeting with ThatPerson like normal...

However, around June or July 2011, i accidentally learnt that ThatPerson is in relationship with someone (Let's call that someone TheOtherPerson). How do i noticed that? As usual me, ThatPerson, and TheOtherPerson tweet happily. At one time, just to make it funnier, i flirted with ThatPerson. In that instance, i can clearly smell jealousy in the air. And the conversation stopped there after 'some-unnoticed-fights'... Funny but true... ^^p

From that moment, i tried to keep a distance between me and ThatPerson. I tweeted less than usual with ThatPerson, perhaps for more than 1 months. I'm not sure whether ThatPerson noticed this-awkward-moment or not, but i have to... -__-

September 2011 came, and i started to notice lots of broken-hearted-tweets from ThatPerson. I feel like asking what happened, but somehow i don't. Guess i shouldn't meddle with ThatPerson's private life too much. However, from now and then, i do gave some comforting words and advices, just to keep ThatPerson happy...

A month passed by. Out of blue, ThatPerson asked me about TheOtherPerson, whom happen to be one of my Tweetpeeps. Even though i'm more than curious with that sudden question, i updated ThatPerson with all that i know about TheOtherPerson. Curious, still, i asked ThatPerson what had happened. ThatPerson then spilled the beans after much of persuasion...

Trying to be a good friend, i listened to ThatPerson's heart-breaking and tearful story. Even though i felt so sorry with ThatPerson, still i feel a little bit happy; not for that they had brokeup, but for that ThatPerson is single again and i can now make ThatPerson mine... When ThatPerson told me "i need some time to heal" and "will never fall in love again in the near future", i asked ThatPerson, "What if there's someone whom had keep his feeling for the past 8 months told you that he likes you?". ThatPerson typed a smiley and told me that it can be considered...

Call me opportunist. Hehehe... ^_^v

However, still i kept that feeling to myself, just to wait for the right moment to come... ^_~

Ok. Seriously i have something to do. Will continue this 'meroyan' ASAP, so stay tuned...

Till the urge to write comes again! Toodles!~... ^_~

Missing You... T_T

Woke up at 4:50am, just to find out that i miss ThatPerson really bad. Only a teary eyes that accompany me...

Dear you... If only you've told me that i do have a chance to win your heart, and that i don't have to act crazy just for the sake of winning you... T__T

Ok Hamdan. Please, go back to sleep. The bridge had been burned. By ME... Even if you hate me for the rest of your life, you'll always have the best place in my heart... ^_^,


*Copied from my tweets...*

Following Forbidden = Blocked!.. O_o

I have 8 drafts of tweet that i kept in my phone, ready to be read by you... But i guess it meant nothing anymore. I'm already blocked... -______-,

I blocked you and then unblock you, in less than 1 minutes. Now it's your turn to do it on me, permanently, and i have no right to oppose...

Padan muka aku...

Bruno Mars - It Will Rain

*Writer - This song suits my current feeling. Apabila terlalu banyak masa diluangkan di hospital, semua kenangan muncul... ^_^'*

It’s All Started In Twitterjaya... ^_^,

Hello gegirls and boboys!~... ^_^v

I need to ventilate my feelings here. AKA 'meroyan'. You might skip this post if u feel like to...

It's all started in February 2011, when i came across this one witty and matured person in Twitter, or popularly known as Twitterjaya. I just followed ThatPerson for his lovely and wonderful tweets, which will surely attract you to read and laugh and embed it in your heart and mind. The best among the best i tell you... ^^p

After months, we got closer and closer, and ThatPerson had became like an acquaintance of me in Twitterjaya. Tweeting with ThatPerson had become a must for me, every single day. We love to reply tweets and tease each other, and that made me feel alive... Believe it or not, i started to like ThatPerson. ThatPerson acts like a special brand of heroin of me. Not trying to sounds dramatic, but ThatPerson really is... ^_^

I LIKE n LOVE ThatPerson. I kept on dreaming of ThatPerson. But i have no idea whether ThatPerson likes me or not. The chances is low... Once heard that if we have a crush on someone and it last for more than 4 months, that can be categorised as love. Yeah, in my case, it last for 8 months. Can you believe that? I can't believe myself either...

Sadly, i can't reveal anything to ThatPerson since i'm afraid of rejection. So i kept it to myself... It's just unbearable...

Ok. It's already late, and i really have to go. Will continue this 'meroyan' later...

Till the urge to write comes again! Toodles!~... ^_~

The Reasons Why I Create This Blog... ^_^

Hello gegirls and boboys!~... ^_^v

You might wonder, why do i create this blog, and why now?.. ^_^?

All this while, i had this urge (since 2008) to create a blog for myself. Not for the sake of gaining fame, but i see it as someway to ventilate my feelings or tenses that i have. But i guess this is the right day and date to do my first writing - Thursday, 1 December 2011...*flips telekung DVF*... ^^B

This urge to write was also had become intense with encouragement from my twitter-cum-IRL-friends. They are @aphize, @AdindaLiyana, and ... this particular person whom i can't mention for that i have hurted this person's heart so much...

Ok. Talking about 'that person', this blog should be kind of our diary of life. But, due to some misunderstanding, it will never happen...

Will always love you. I can't lie to myself... T_____T

Till the urge to write comes again! Toodles!~... ^_~

Hello! It’s Me, Hamdan... ^_~

Hello gegirls and boboys!~... ^_^v

Thank you so much for dropping by my blog. Nothing serious will be discussed here, and it should be a leisure-oriented blog... Perhaps for now. LOL...

Anyway, let me introduce a little bit about myself. I'm Hamdan Alias, a Scorpio who was born in November 1983. Proudly born and bred in Teluk Intan, Perak, a small and quiet town located 95 kilometres south-south-west of Ipoh, Perak...

I love tweeting, and i spend most of my daily hours tweeting. Even when i'm driving or between my lectures. I just can't help it! LOL. Want to follow me on Twitter? Search for @hamdanalias83 and surely you'll find it... Furthermore, i love music so much. It puts sort of positive vibes into my life and make it livelier. Types of music that i fond to? Anything! But i prefer Pop, RnB, Rap, Dance, Pop-rock, and even Traditional. BUT Metal thingy is a big NO for me. I just can't stand it... Other than that, i love travelling, arts, decorations, and to the upmost; MONEY! Well, everyone loves money, right? LOL... $_$

Moreover, i love cooking and baking, despite having limited time to burn the kitchen. But still i'll do my best to turn the kitchen upside-down at least once a month. LOL. What types of dishes that i'm into? Any types of simple biscuits, simple cakes, soup-based dishes, and fried-based dishes. BUT, i'm totally bad with traditional dishes, unless with the help of my super-mom. She's my big influence. Anyway, i love to give new recipes a try whenever i found interesting recipes...

Ok. Enough with the mumbles. It's for sure you'll learn lots about me through my tweets and whatever that i'll publish soon...

Till the urge to write comes again. Toodles!~... ^_~